The power of feminine discipline

There’s been a back and forth movement going on in my life for such a long time. 

On the one end, I am very disciplined. I do what it takes, until it takes. I push myself to finish my to-do list, to exercise, and to implement all the habits i know are good for me. 

This goes on for a period of time, sometimes only a couple of weeks, more often for some months, and then the pendulum swings in the other direction and I become lazy, stop showing up, eat chocolate and forget about journaling, exercise and vision boards.

This dynamic is so counter-productive and also makes me feel like shit. And the more i guilt trip myself, the more I dig my heels in and watch ‘Blacklist’. 

Until the pendulum swings again and I’m back on top of things. For a while. 

This has been bugging me so much lately, and so this morning I sat down and asked my guides what is going on. 

Their answer put something into words that i could feel, like a nebulous mist, hovering somewhere in the back of my awareness. Without being able to put my finger on it. 

Now it feels like the sun broke through and is fast dissolving the mist. Things make sense! And i am so grateful.

In case you can relate to the on again - off again dynamic (that I also used to have in my relationships, just as a side note…), here is what came through:

You can easily create a life you love.

Like we spoke about recently, keep your focus on the thing you desire until you have brought it into reality. It is already present in the field of possibilities, and your attention and focus solidifies it into being.

While there is some aligned action involved, when we speak of focus we don’t mean become a slave driver who is obsessed with her goals and grinds herself and the world hard to make it happen. 

Yes, this method can work, and many are doing life this way. And for many, it’s fun to hustle. To push, to overcome obstacles, to put their mark on things. 

But for you, this is not sustainable. 

You are a conduit. 

This means that you allow things to flow through. You are connecting heaven and earth, the spiritual and the mundane. 

What comes through you doesn’t come from you. 

When you start pushing you go into ego and this closes the valve and shuts the connection down. 

You are then only in your own energy field, and without the powerful replenishment of source energy your field gets drained and you get exhausted. 

And the ego’s way of resting are all the things you then do: short term gratifications instead of real sustenance. 

There is a different way, and you are currently beginning to discover it. A golden path that unfolds in front of your feet. An easy, flowing, beautiful, nourishing, loving path, that is always there for you, and that you can always find. 

To find it, stop the pushing!

All that does is that it tells the Universe and yourself that you don’t feel deserving. That you have to somehow proof your worth before good things can come to you. You are disowning being an energy alchemist, and instead become a slave to the system. 

And since you’re still a powerful creator no matter what you do, you then create a reality in which you have to push, in which you have to show your worth, in which you are bound by cause and effect. 

What is this other way you ask?

It’s the discipline of the feminine. 

Being discplined enough to not believe in doubtful thoughts. To not give into fear or worry, but to instead stay firmly planted in trust. 

You know this is how it works! You know that it is meant to be easy. You know that there is no point in trying to forcefully push the world to give you what you want. You know that all you have to do is become who you would like to be, now, and then all that comes along with this incarnation will find it’s way to you.

Align with the frequency of your desire.

Become light and joyful and abundant. Surrender your fears, and step fully into trusting. If you already had what you’re desiring, you would feel deserving of it. Yes, you would be grateful for all the good in your life. The abundance, the love, the fulfilment. But it would also feel normal and ‘just the way it is’. 

You know that you can internally go there at any time.

You know there is NO need to worry or to be afraid. There is nothing that can come at you ‘out of the blue’. As our friends Abraham Hicks say: ‘It doesn’t come out of the blue, it comes out of the oblivious’. 

See yourself as an empowered being.

Know that you are the co creator of everything you encounter. Know that you’ve got this, and that you have total freedom as to what you want to create. There are no limits, apart from the internal ones you place on your dreams.

And you can stop right now to put rocks on your path. Be willing to trust in your worth. Be willing to trust in the beauty of your dream. And be courageous enough to release fear and surrender doubt. 

All of you are meant to have a life that feels just right for you.

This is why you came, to express your own personal flavour in ever more beautiful ways.

For some, this is done through fighting with the world, through exercising wilful power.

But for you and for most Lightworkers, this is done through trust.

Through surrender. Through letting go of the safety nets, and the ‘what if’s’ and to stay firmly in the vibration of what you want. 

Because once you do that, you are it. It is you. And all is, and always was, well.