What if you were perfect, exactly as you are?
Have you ever asked yourself this question?
I do believe that you come into this body with a specific idea of what you want to do. A mission. A vision. A calling.
Wouldn’t it make sense then that you also come equipped with all you need to make this happen?
I know this is true, when I look at nature. Every little critter is perfect. Well adapted to where it lives, functioning perfectly and in very interesting ways, filled with flair and beauty.
Why should it be any different for us humans?
For arguments sake, let’s assume that you came in perfectly prepared, and all you really need to do to bring your gifts out is to ‘do you’.
But instead of a free flowing unfolding of who you are, we get born into families with pre-existing structures. With belief systems. With ideas about ‘the right way’. With fears and uncertainties and plans and wishes and goals for this child/you.
These ideas quite possibly don’t align with who you are.
And you’re vulnerable as a baby. Can’t do much for yourself to survive. You need help and feeding and a ton of other stuff.
In short, you are dependant.
And because of that it is really, really important that your parents love you. So you’re ‘good’. You adept. You learn how to behave by modeling them. And through all of that, you forget.
Who you are
Why you came
As a smallish child you can often still remember. But then you have to go to kindergarten. There are rules and, yet again, ideas of how you should behave. There are other children with their own agenda. There are tired moms and overworked dads.
And there is you, expected to cooperate, to be easy, to fit in.
Through that, you lose more and more the connection to why you TRULY came, to your Calling.
You can’t clearly find your knowledge and wisdom and purpose any longer. And you begin feeling lost.
Over the years, this feeling of being lost, not quite right and not quite whole keeps on bugging you, and you decide that there is something wrong with you.
That you have to adept.
That you have to fix yourself.
And so you try. And you feel self conscious and unsure and not good enough and like you’re living in the wrong film….
But what if you would be perfect, exactly as you are?
Or maybe, even better:
What if who you were coming in was perfect for all you came here to do?
Who were you?
What did you like as a child?
Especially the things that didn’t fit in, the ones you tried to train yourself out of?
When I asked myself this question, here are some of the things I came up with:
1. I knew, from a very young age, that I was SUPPOSED to do as I please. That this was my birthright. My destiny! I was around 3 when I created my first song and lyrics:
Ich bin das schönste Kind der Welt, und mach was mir gefällt.
(I am the most beautiful child in the world and do whatever I want.)
2. I needed (and still need) SO MUCH alone time. I remember hiding in trees, with my book, hoping the kids that came over to play wouldn’t find me and would leave again. I also remember being discovered on several occasion, and being asked to come down and play. I did so thinking: ‘It’s ok, I can be myself again tomorrow…’
3. I used to get in trouble so much because I constantly tried to ‘save’ little animals. Coming too late to school ‘cause there were so many earthworms on the pavement after a rainy night that I had to get back to safety.
And if it didn’t rain, there were bees and flies and ladybirds that had fallen into a pond in our neighbourhood and needed rescuing.
4. I read obsessively as a child, using it to hide from the world and it’s demands. Still do if I’m in close proximity with other people for a long time.
These are just some of the things I did that I thought of as ‘odd’ and that I was convinced needed to be fixed for me to be normal and ok.
I have written them down to give you an idea of what to look for, and to help you to start making your own list.
Want to play along?
Then write down what you used to repeatedly do as a child.
Once you have your list, let’s work with it.
I would like you to assume now that all of these things you wrote down are signposts.
Pointers. Important skills and behaviours you need to fulfill your calling.
Perfect for who you are.
Looking at them in this way, what would they tell you about who you are?
Again, I go first to make it easier:
1. Yes, I am meant to do as I please! This is something I can now openly embrace. I still occasionally feel a bit odd or princessy about it, but it’s not a very strong feeling anymore.
I know that I am a leader, that I came to change things, that I am here to teach and inspire people to realize their own power in creating a life they love, and I can’t do any of this if I don’t do as I please and instead try to conform.
2. The alone time thing is also still very true, and by now I understand why. I am an empath. I read energies. I pick up other people’s thoughts, moods and problems. Being in crowded places is very exhausting for me. Also, to access my connection to my soul I need space and a clear, calm energy. This is much easier to do when I’m alone.
3. I still help animals, but now I also give money to homeless people, beggars and busker, and try to shop organic and ethically produced things. All this comes from a sense of responsibility towards the ones in trouble, be it a being or a planet. I guess this is a very good thing to have for a leader…
4. The reading part took a while to figure out. What was exceptional about escaping into different realities?
Face slap, aha moment:
Of course! I trained myself from a young age to not see the seeming ‘reality’ most people believe in as the only one. Later it was an easy step to acknowledge that I can consciously create how my reality shows up, and to then teach that to others.
To sum that up:
I am meant to be a leader, an empath and a teacher of conscious reality creation.
Which sounds just about right :).
How about you, what are you meant to be and do?