You came here, why?
You used to know exactly why when you were small.
Which big dreams did you hold? What was normal back then? What did you know you would do and become and just BE?
Before it got trained out of you by people who had forgotten their own mission. Who wanted the best for you, in the way they thought the best had to come. Who wanted you save, and relatable.
Who didn’t want you sticking your head out too much, being too different, being too odd…
It is uncomfortable going places with an odd child. One who is confident, knows who she is, is vocal about it. Children are so good anyway at telling it like it is. Add to that some determination and cockiness and you’ve got a lot of embarassing situations in your future as a parent.
Plus, you ARE small and you don’t know that cars can run over you and the stove is hot and the knife is sharp and you might drown in the ocean. So parents are careful, for you, about you.
All of this leads to you becoming careful yourself.
Being complacent. Dialing it down. Dialing it down some more. Dialing it down so far that you can’t hear yourself anymore, and that you instead join the same circles everybody else wanders around in.
Who am I?
Why am I here?
What’s my purpose?
What’s the point?
Some of us always know that this is not how life’s supposed to be. And yet they can’t access the ‘Other’ hidden somewhere within.
And still you’re drawn by your purpose, like a moth to a flame.
You don’t really want to go. Your conditioning is strong, and you’re afraid that, just like the moth, you’ll burn.
So you go one step forward and two steps back. You make excuses. You listen to your fear. You say you don’t know what you want, why you came.
And yet it keeps calling you….
And then, one day, it finds a way in. You allowed yourself to connect. Maybe through sitting in silence. Maybe through a deep, honest conversation. Maybe through journaling without censoring.
In any case, you’ve had a glimpse. It flowed. It felt so good. It exploded out of you, you had the right words, you knew it made sense, you knew there was something so connected, so familiar, so alive about all of this.
And you wanted more!
But there was still so much split energy. Yes, this was amazing and powerful and totally cool, but you have to do REAL LIFE too! Real life is a struggle. Real life isn’t all fun and roses. Real life is haaaaaaard….
For a while, you oscillate. The pressure builds with that. Real life feels more and more uncomfortable. Exhausting. Plain old wrong. You are constantly torn.
Now you’ve got a choice:
You can drop the dream, the connectedness, the flow
Or you embrace it and allow for all you’ve been taught to be wrong.
This isn’t an easy decision. There is safety in the familiar. There is value in it too. Being like everybody else means you fit in. You are relateable. You are one of ‘them’.
The new, while exciting, is also scary. There are not that many examples of people who live from flow. It takes total trust in who you are. Total trust that you are made perfectly for what you came here to explore, to contribute, to give.
And then being this YOU fully, beYOUtifully!
No fitting in.
This is a tough order. Especially when you’ve been here before. Especially when you’ve been different before.
Being burned at the stake. Being driven out of town. Being fed to the lions. Being hanged and laughed at and shuned and thrown out of the tribe….
This stuff is deeply embedded in your cellular memory. Your cells want to live. Your body wants to live.
But your soul wants to live too.
You came here with a Calling.
With something that you are meant to bring through.
To shine in.
To inspire through.
To liberate with.
This Calling, if it is strong, has a powerful, powerful energy.
It won’t allow you to forget, to go into conformity and oblivion.
It wants out.
It wants to live.
And fulfill itself through you.
All you ever wanted in your life will come to you through what you’re meant to do.
Basically, it comes to you through you being who you are.
Letting it the fuck out!
Once you know you HAVE a mission,
You’ve gotta EMBRACE it
And then you ACE it!
The transformation you know you’re here to inspire
The lifestyle you want to live
The money you want
All of this comes with you finally expressing Who You Truly Are!
Once you’ve practised connecting, letting it flow, it becomes scarily easy.
For example, I haven’t stopped once while writing this text. Sat down, put my fingers on the keyboard, connected, and let it out. No thinking required. No hard work needed.
30 minutes later here we are. I haven’t read through it but I know that it feels RIGHT. Connected. Aligned. In Flow.
It is just a natural extension of who I am, flowing through me out onto the page.
It feels good.
And it feels easy to do.
This used to scare me into dismissing what I wrote.
I have pages and pages and pages of flow writing I never published, never looked at again.
Just recently I read through some stuff I have written over a ‘I’m just going to do this now every morning’ period, when the push of my Calling got too strong to ignore. It is great stuff!
It truly flows.
It’s even occasionally funny.
It has it’s on rhythm.
In short, I love it!
What’s your thing that comes so easily when you are connected to soul?
Do you make beautiful music? Do you paint? Do you write? Are you a dancer? Do you cook the most delicious meals out of whatever is in your fridge?
I fully believe we all have our thing. What it takes to bring it out is for you to be yourself. To trust that who you are, what you were given, what you have access to, is enough, is valuable, is right, is perfect, is why you came!
Do you believe that?
Can you allow it to come out?
Can you allow it to be easy to be you, to do you?
This is were the true richness and sweetness of life is found. The absolute RIGHTness. The Why-you-came-ness. The gift you have to give.
Don’t let it go to waste darling.
Breathe, connect, and let it through.
Yes, it will be clunky in the beginning. Like everything else, accessing your gifts and becoming a channel gets easier with practice.
Commit to who you are!
Connect with it.
Allow it to flow through you, every single day.